About Me

INTRODUCTION

Hello I am a 60 year old crossdresser. My feminine name is Lexi. I am a bi/straight male. I am not looking to transition into a female. I do enjoy dressing up as a female. I am married to a wonderful beautiful lady who is 11 years younger then me. although she has not had experience with a partner who likes to cross dress and wear make up , she has been very understanding. She has given me make up tips and fashion tips , Posture tips and other female related tips. We are able to wear a lot of the same clothes, (and she has some really cut clothes!) We also will go on shopping trips together, and also have gone out “clubbing together with me dressed up. I will talk more about our relationship more on a different page.

Early teens as a cross dresser

I have struggled with my feminine side since my early teens. My first experience was when my step mom put me in girl clothes one day as punishment. I was about 7 years old at the time, she said if I was going to act like a little baby girl, I might as well look like one. She then proceeded to put me in a diaper and one of my younger sisters dresses and made me wear them the rest of the day. I only remember her doing this twice. Well I guess that even though I was embarrassed at the time, I must have liked it because those instances have stuck with me to this day. Later in my teen years, I found myself getting dresses out of my sisters closet, and putting them on. I also would make makeshift diapers out of towels and such. I would do this off an on through out my teen years until I Left home an joined the Army.

Early Adulthood as a cross dresser

I joined the Army right out of High school. My crossdressing slowed for several years, while I was in the army, although I was able to indulge once in a while. .I married a Korean woman, and we had a son I had talked to her about my crossdressing tendencies, but she was not much interested in that part of me. I do remember that she did buy me a little pink nightie, but being young and still embarrassed about liking female clothes, I only wore it once or twice in front of her. After about 4 years of being married, I came home for lunch one day and she informed me that she was leaving my son and I, After the divorce and being in my twenty’s, and trying to be a single parent, I did not have much time for dressing up, and the women that dated, I did not tell them about it. Although I did have a couple of nighties that I would wear to bed and a few pair of panties. I did remarry after a couple of years, but soon found out that she was not interested in Sex, much less any of my interests in diaper wearing and crossdressing.

During this time I graduated towards the diaper wearing little girl side of myself. Since she had no interest in joining with me in my play, I mostly did this when I was alone. I had by this time accumulated, a small colection of diapers, plastic pants, onesies, and some girlish type dresses and skirts, that I kept hidden in the garage. Well that marriage did not go much better and we divorced after 10 years. Of course I blamed a lot of the problems on me and my unhappiness with the fact that I had crossdressing tendencies, so during the divorce I purged all of my diapers and feminine clothes, thinking that if I just got rid of everything, I would be all better (more about purging in a different post.)

Midlife as a cross dresser

So here I single again, and the urges and tendencies were coming back, and I started regretting throwing out all of my stuff. so I began replenishing my stock of ABDL clothes, diapers, plastic pants, onesies, etc. I also started buying more panties, a couple of bra’s, and skirts, dresses , and girly tops. Back then it was much harder to order things online, so I would shop at thrift stores like Goodwill. I would usually buy something else to go along with my girly purchases, it didn’t seem so embarrassing that way. My son was still living with me so I still kept my crossdressing to my self

When my son was about 13 he went to live with his mom, ( she lived in Hawaii , so I don’t blame him for wanting to) Shortly after that I met a woman on line and after getting to know her, I found out that she had a kinky side to her. So here I am thinking that she had an open mind and I would be able to tell her about my Diaper wearing and my liking to wear female clothes. So I did, and it seemed to go well and she seemed accepting. We started dating and after a few months moved in with her. Well after a few momths, it didn’t take long, that , yes she did have a kinky side, but it was more about what she wanted and what I could do for her. What I wanted to do or play was often put by the wayside or if I voiced my fantasies about ABDL or crossdressing as a female, I might gt the comment that “Oh that’s just dumb or silly, I cant do that” I was able to dress up on Halloween or certain occasions , but even then she seemed to turn it around and make it about herself.. So once again in my life I found my self dressing up on my own when I was alone. I did keep replenishing my supply of female items, although I did go thru at least one more purge and binge cycle in the 20 years of that relationship. We never got married and that relationship eventually ended.

Present Day as a crossdresser

For the next couple of years, being single again, and approaching my sixty’s , I was really doubting that going to find anyone that was truly accepting of me. I did some online dating and meeting people thru friends and such. I even met some people thru the local kink community where I lived. I did meet a couple of women who I knew would probably be accepting of me, However I felt I would just be ‘settling’ and even though they liked me, I felt we would not mesh in other ways or just day to day life. So I just kind of just quit looking.

Well one day, I was invited over to a friends house for a BBQ, Also there was a beautiful tall blond woman that had also been invited. I also learned that she was single also. I am kind of shy so it took a bit for me to get up the courage to talk to her. My thought was that this girl will never have anything to do with me, let alone date me. she is younger, blond and beautiful. Well i finally did get the courage to start talking to her, and as I did I realized that she was human just like the rest of us. Well we seemed to click and we actually did start dating. Eventually I started trusting her and told her all about me and my cross dressing. She did not run away, in fact she was appreciative that I trusted her enough to tell her my secrets. A Year later we were married. She lets me be me, she does not put me down or make me feel bad about wanting to wear make up or female clothing. She participates with me, she gives me make up tips, we share clothing, tells me when I look good or what I need to do to improve my look. Our relationship continues to grow and I look forward to many years of fun and frolics.